Shifting Cynicism

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Last Years's Resolution

Made very few resolutions last year. I think the score was 3/5.

1. Job stability
Either with this company or a better opportunity elsewhere

It actually was still difficult, but got more and more stable towards the end of the year. Seen many people came and went.

2. Potential wife
Very important, but will depend on (1)

No luck yet, but I did try to find someone, and ended up just dating many women.

3. Improved relationship with parents
Wished for this every year but rarely happens.

It probably improved but only very marginally. With my siblings it got worse, almost to the point of not talking now.

4. Better social life

It was awful in the first half of the year, but ended up fantastic.

5. Less negativity

In general, i think i was a lot happier than before. This could be due to finally having a nice city pad, a nice continental car, the women and generally good relationship with office staff.

Friday, December 30, 2011

L'amant III

As morning came, i could not help myself.

She was there sleeping next to me, with nothing on but a towel. After much hesitation finally my hand started creeping towards those incredible breasts. She did not object.
i kept at it forever, it was an incredible sensation. she was gorgeous and her body was like heaven.

probably around 9, eve came into the room. quinn didn't budge, and there was no way i was gonna wake up. after much moving in the room, she decide to pick a spot on the bed and lay down. so there i was in saigon, lying in bed with two young ladies.

initially i tried to behave but it was too hard to resist quinn's body. i started to keep on with the molesting, trying to be as quiet as possible. eventually eve got up and just left, she probably noticed the whole thing.

it was probbaly noon when we finally woke up, and i really could not let her go.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

L'amant II

Eve was a pretty average looking girl and certainly not as hot as quinn.

our goal for the day was just to get some paintings and home decoration. we started off with breakfast at a supermarket, then we headed to ben thanh. i didn't get to buy too many things and she was a little bit bored by the whole trip. we spent a lot of time walking around the area, visited the church which was closed and also the post office. we started making plans for the next few days and she called quin a few times to speak. i just found it incredible that they could speak for so long to discuss what seemed trivial matters.

eve was ok, but there was nothing particularly special i thought, about her. all the time i was with her i kept thinking of meeting quinn again.

i told her it would be great to get a massage and we set about looking for a place. we finally settled for a rather posh area, and which was not too cheap as we were tired by then. we went for foot massage, but i bump into a masseuse who was offering body massage i beleive, she was incredibly gorgeous i couldn't stop thinking what i would do if eve wasn't around.

she took me back to the hotel and then just hanged about in the hotel room. i was feeling very awkward. i mean i wanted to shower and rest but i didn't at all feel like sleeping with her. she kept asking if i was gonna take my shower but i kept delaying it, hoping she would leave. But she stuck around.

i took my shower and nothing happened thankfully. i suggested for her to change, and she somewhat reluctantly agreed finally to go home and change. she took me to her hostel and told me to sit around her room while she took her shower in the bath outside the room. then we both took a cab to meet quinn.

quinn loked sexy in a black top and long dress. we went to a cosy restaurant and i thought the 3 of us had a great, relaxing time. then they were discussing about what to do and decided to hang out at a disco.

the disco was alright, the music was pretty good too. we had some drinks and then quinn started acting up. she appeared drunk and strongly protested not. it started getting more and more embarassing with her tipping over and almost falling down. at the end, with the prodding of some knowing looks from the waiters, i had to drag her out, with she still protesting.

while getting a taxi, she was acting up again, it was embarassing.eve appeared disgusted of the whole thing too. i was getting very worried, thoughts of my bizzare experience once of almost getting beaten up when i was with a drunk girl, kept creeping up. this was a strange city and i was alone with these two girls - one dead drunk. i tried very very hard to keep calm and control quinn although i was geting really really annoyed and tired of the mess.

we took a cab to the hotel. i checked the both of them into a room and i thought that was the end of it.

i went to my room, and before long like i suspected i got a knock on the door. it was eve, she handed me the keys and told me she would be back in a minute. i smelled something fishy and warned her she must come back and look after quinn. but she never did.

a while later quinn got up and asked me where eve was. i said she was coming back, but she refused to answer her calls. quinn cried that she would never go back as she was scared as sleeping alone. she went down to the lobby and sat around lamenting about some shit in her life, and insisting she would wait for eve. this went on and on i was completely pissed off but kept calm. this was the kind of shit you could run into coming alone to a strange country. i swore not to meet these two women again one morning came. this was exactly the kind of drama i was trying to escape from back home - women and their manipulation and blackmailing and jealousy. i started to suspect that this could be a trap, or a trick set up by quinn. i might end up having to sleep with her and then face the consequences.

after what seemed like forever she finally agreed that eve wasn't coming back and then she had to go back to the room and sleep on her own. i walked her back to her room but as we approached the room, the door opened up and there were other quests in there.

i was surprised and wondered what happened. but by then i was way too tired and my head was throbbing. i decided then that i had no choice but to put her in my room, like it or not. she seemed secretly happy about that so it just made me even more suspicious of her intention.

i got on bed and lied down. she went to bathroom and had some washing i think. then she came out wrapped in a towel and started warning me "you don't touch me, you don't touch me". well i had no intention of doing so anyway and that was how we slept.

i lied awake and thought about how crazy this was. what if this was a trap? why did these women want to sleep with me so much? How should i leave them tomorrow? this whole thing was nonsensical i have no interests in meeting them again and going through a drama like this. but if i leave them, how do i get around, and what would i do? this hotel was in the middle of nowhere. and quinn.. oh my..what happened to her? she was so perfect before, why must she act this way?

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

L'amant

What an amazing trip..

I was very apprehensive about this trip at first, couldn't slept the night before. at the airport i got dismayed at the shabby conditions and the long wait, and i was particularly worried about bumping into someone - flying low cost, alone, with an unclear motive.

yet, i had to get away from everything. it had been a while since i last travelled. all those women i dated, and all those other bitches who were trying to get near me had become pretty overwhelming. the holiday was gonna be long, and i wanted to escape to somewhere exotic.

the cramped conditions in the plane and the heat gave me a slight headache and at that moment i really regretted having spending my money for this discomfort. i was also feeling unsure and anxious of how things will turn out.

two hours later i had arrived in saigon, it was 330 pm.

i showed the address that quin gave me, but the taxi driver had a problem finding it. after a few phone calls to quin, and asking for directions he finally found it. the room was OK, only thing it was on the ground floor and had no view. I got it changed the next day. it costed only USD20.

my head was still throbbing slightly and it was some 3 hours before quin would be available. i tried to take a nap but couldn't but it was sufficient rest at the hotel room.

whe she arrived, she looked just like i expected. Pretty, almost like Jolin. She cam on her motorbike we headed out straight. First she told me to ride the bike. I declined, havent been riding a bike for so long. Even if i could the traffic in saigon was extremely scary and used a different direction. To my surprise she insisted so i had no chance but to try my best. After only a few wobbly metres she told me to stop, and took over.

Riding a bike in Saigon was one amazing experience. Never before had i seen so many motorbikes on the road, and i just could not believe how everyone managed to move without banging on each other. Riding pillon, i kept holding on to my knee caps, worrying they could kncok into something and shatter.

we had a simple dinner of pho', i had to have two bowls. our conversation was casual, she was a pretty smart girl although her english was not perfect. As the night wore out, i kept thinking of how hot she was. riding on the bike, being so close to her actually made me feel great.

after dinner she took me to a cafe, which i thought was very cozy and nice. the entrance was through some backlane somewhere but once inside i was pretty amazed, we had some drinks, then one of her friends - eve -came and join us. i wanted to stay longer but my head was still aching from the flight and i couln't help yawning. she had to work the next day, so eve had volunteered to take me around on her bike. she had just graduated and was going to be free.