the guinness incident

Maybe, just maybe..this is finally the end.

i had grown a little disinterested and am now pretty disillusioned about her.

and the guinness incident looks like the straw that broke the camel's back. why  did she have to lie over something like this. it shows that she hasnt not been sincere, and honest with me. it also shows disrespect.

sevy wrote a stinging text to me - better that this is over, as nobody would ever take me seriously if they see me with her. it got me thinking about how other people has been viewing us, and it does make me feel stupid.

let's just hope i dont miss her soon and start making a fool out of myslef again. sure, she might not be suitable for me. she might not have appreciated me, but i did feel and cared about her. i wanted her to be happy, more than anything eslse. for the entire year my thoughts were consumed with her, and being with her no matter how little, had made me feel on top of the world and genuinely happy.